They whisper “you’ve changed” like it’s a bad thing. I will never deny that I am not who I was, nor am I who I will be but I am who I am. The being I am right now is because of what I know thus far. As I walk with bare feet, grounding my soles into the the soil, I am gently reminded that who I am is plenty enough.
I carry no resistance to changing with the seasons and phasing through life like the moon. I am fluid yet I am resilient like the oceans tide. I allow space for things to shake and shift. As new seeds are planted, I allow my values to evolve. I sit in grace and compassion for the mistakes I’ve made and will make, for the lessons I’ve learnt and still will learn.
So yes, I have changed. I might not be the me I used to be but I am still me. The woman who leads with an open heart that yearns to be wild and loves to love. The she who is perpetually hungry to experience and expand my tastes of life. The one who finds herself humbled and bows on her knees when she feels the emotions that come swirling in with the wind.
I am here to be nourished by the universe and all it’s teachings. I want to change because I want to grow so I can blossom and when I blossom I can bloom, baby, bloom.
Cassy,
So Beautiful my friend or should I say I love your thoughts my Beautiful Friend.
How uncanny? I just stepped in the door from 3.5 hours at Chapters to find my next self-help book. Need to figure out how to forgive myself for whom I don’t know anymore, guilt for not wanting to live the life I knew and find that lady I want to be so I can be once again feel pride, strength, and honor. I’m desperate for my next stage of emotional healing & how to re-invent me with full dignity! And to quit Faking that I’m happy to appease others.
Your first paragraph seems so clear for you. I want that….. I’m good with change….. if we plunge forward in a positive way and avoid having the life sucked out of us due to circumstances, we have no control over.
I feel you; I hear you; I love you.
Hugs. Shell.
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Thank you for sharing your insights! I for one think you are perfect just the way you are!
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